Post surgical abortion (my story)

This is pretty much entirely to let me get this off my chest and vent about what I went through bc I have no one else to talk to about it. Hopefully I can help others who are seeking positive outcomes as well. And I’ll preface this by saying my experience has been so easy and probably the best it could have been. I live in the US Bible Belt but thank the universe I live in one of the three cities in the state that has an abortion clinic. As soon as I took the pregnancy test I called the clinic. I knew I didnt want this and as soon as I told my fiancée he was instantly on the same page. We don’t have the money, time or space for a third child. We have two already and my 4 year old has autism. The PPD after I had him made me suicidal. I won’t go into the fun details of that.. but I knew I didn’t want to go through that again. I didn’t want to be pregnant again. Not to mention I just lost my grandmother tragically not even a month before I took the test... my mental state is already flipped on it’s head. I made the first initial appointment and when I walked in I thought I would need to hang my head in shame and it would be dark and gloomy but to my surprise I was wrong. The wall decor was all about normalizing abortion and women’s rights to choose. They let me choose whether or not I wanted to see/hear the ultra sound. I said no and I’m so glad they asked me. I spoke to a counselor that gave me a bunch of information but in a gentle loving way. They lowered the price based on my income from $600 to $490 and then she gave me the number for an abortion fund in the state. They paid $200 of it so all we had to pay was $290 and that was suuuuuch a blessing for us. Then the doctor gave me even more information at the end. I chose not to dive too much into research because I am the type to obsess over the bad situations and scenarios. I did a little bit of reading through this subreddit but not much. I had a super sweet Reddit user reach out to me and offer to talk and give me any advice I needed. That was super encouraging. So Saturday comes around and it’s time for my procedure. Counseling session to start out to make sure this is 100% what I want to do. Then proceeded the process. Moving from that to finger pricking, taking medications to help me relax and so on, undress and put a robe on and then... the craziest thing happened. They have a couch area were you wait until your meds kick in and it’s your turn for the procedure. While I’m sitting there talking with two other women (social distanced and masks) all the sudden the new channel it was on said BIDEN WON 46TH PRESIDENCY! I was SO HAPPY. It was such a strange moment to be where I was and then such a historical presidency election was determined. Anyway. Skipping to time for my procedure. They tell me to focus on breathing and a older sweet nurse talked small talk with me to help me get my mind off of it. TRIGGER WARNING: needles/shots ahead I will say that the worst part of all of it was the numbing shots in my cervix and the dilation. It does hurt, I’m not going to lie. But. It’s not the worst pain in the world and it is very very fast. If you’ve had children or even just some dental work done, you’ll be fine and you can handle it trust me. The doctor and nurses talked me through it and assured me I was okay when they saw me in pain. Then I hear the machine come on. Boom. Done. Then I’m sitting up. They had to do a few exercises with my legs and put some cold rags on me to get me able to come back to all the way to walk to my seat. I was very nauseous and it was difficult keeping my eyes open but I did it and returned to my seat. Took me about 5-7 minutes to start coming out of the haze. I just closed my eyes and listened to the air conditioner blowing in the background. Then it was time to get dressed and go back to the counselor. I was very sleepy and nauseous but I told her I was happy it’s over and I’m happy I went through with it. She said I was so sleepy bc of the Valium. No regrets. She wished me all the best and sent me with my fiancée who was waiting there for me in the lobby. He held my hand and walked me quickly to our vehicle bc there were protesters outside of the property. It was protected by an officer on duty so they were not on the property but eighth outside of it. I barely heard them just saw a huge cross out of the corner of my eye. I wanted to wave at them lol. My kiddos were in the car and they gave me big hugs. They didn’t know why I was there obviously. Just that I was at the doctor for a while. My fiancée got me chocolates and a stuffed teddy bear and we went home. I passed out for 5 hours and woke up feeling so much better. The nausea had gone away but I was still sore for sure. Since then I’ve been sleeping a lot and taking my meds they gave me and taking it as easy as I can with two kids. I feel even more empowered as a woman that I got to choose this for not only me but for my family and my fiancée. Today the abortion fund that paid for half of my procedure sent me a care package. It has underwear, a home made mask, pads, chapstick, condoms, 2 plan B pills, gum and relaxing tea. It almost brought a tear to my eye. This is community and this is caring for your fellow woman... I will be sending donations to that abortion fund and the clinic when we get financially stable. Now I am doing one of my favorite things which is drinking beer, listening to music and cooking dinner for my family happy as can be <3 may your journey be easy and guilt free. I love you and blessed be <3 via /r/abortion https://www.reddit.com/r/abortion/comments/jr9awh/post_surgical_abortion_my_story/?utm_source=ifttt