Starting to try and lessen my MD tomorrow. I've tried and failed so many times. (LONG)

I realized that the only thing that can help me get away from this is keeping myself busy. Heck, I'd even replace this with another addiction honestly. I'm just so tired of walking in circles because its so noticeable. Not to mention annoying. And hard to hide from people. Everybody can hear my stomping and music and it just feels like the most psycho thing ever.I've written down all the possible end outcomes:Eliminate all MD from my life and live like a literal normal person.Eliminate pacing with music; but still daydream/zone out sometimes when im laying or sitting down.Eliminate only pacing, and find a more discreet repetitive movement to perform with music that not stomping in circles (!!)Keep music and pacing but just do it less often than I do.Literally do nothing about it and keep being a psycho for the rest of my life (Which is what always happens when I try to do this)It's just such a weird addiction that I have trouble telling myself that its an addiction. Also, I don't see the harm in it. I'm not harming anyone, I'm just making myself happy. It's fun. Dancing around in my magical daydream la la land where I am a normal teenager because I somehow cannot manage to do that in real life.My motivations, so I can look back at this list and remember why I'm doing this:So that people don't think I'm a weirdoSo that I can focus on doing other things in my freetime and being more productiveSo that I can live with someone in the future and not seem like a weirdo (in a college dorm, the military, or when I get married)So that I can hold a relationshipSo that I can hold a job and be more focusedFor the past month or so, I've stopped pacing in the morning. I get up at 6:20, get ready for school, leave at 7:30, and get home at 4:30. I haven't paced until after school and didn't mind because I'm busy. Weekends are harder because I'm usually at home all day. A couple weeks ago I decided no more pacing after 10 pm. That's held up moderately well but it needs work because sometimes I just give in.Here are some possible alternatives to pacing daydreaming:Listen to music but just lay in bed and not paceWrite a story/write in my journalClean my roomRead a chapter in a bookMake a study guide for one of my AP classes or just work on them honestlyTry a new hairstyle (yes I can take hours on these things) or makeup or whateverPlay the pianoPlay the guitar (... uh. It's definitely been a while)Drivers ed (yikes I need to work on this)Draw somethingGo on my phone?...go on my laptopRe decorate my room, get rid of things idkMake a playlistNap.Cook/bake somethingOrganize school suppliesGo for a runEatPlay with my birdText or call my friendsSo yeah, those are some things I could do... will I do them? I don't know, I guess we'll see.It's hard because when I get angry (well, sad really, I don't get angry that often) I automatically just go pace. That's what makes me relapse usually. This weekend I'm having some friends sleep over at my house so I won't be able to pace then, which is good. I guess wish me luck you guys. If you're trying to minimize or get rid of this too, maybe make some lists like these. Good night I guess via /r/MaladaptiveDreaming https://ift.tt/2JYa519