Just found out nmom withheld evidence that would have convicted the man that molested me. I'm very overwhelmed.

I (18F) just found out my mom (41F) kept written statements from her now ex-husband that molested me two years ago from the police. I'm so distraught, and it perplexes me how a mother could do that. I'm starting to realize how disgustingly selfish she is.Shortly after I was molested and I told her, she let him write me letters where he "apologised" for putting his fingers inside me. The police said we couldn't have contact, so my mom decided to let him write me letters so they couldn't be traced. It now makes sense why she forced me to give the letters back to her after reading them. I feel so betrayed. I feel even more betrayed by my mother than I do her ex-husband honestly.The letters themselves caused fights between us. I told her I thought they were bogus, and she got furious and told me "these are beautifully written letters where he apologized. You're so ungrateful, you should be thankful he isn't denying what happened. He wants to go to therapy, and you're telling him to just fuck off."My mom wanted him out of jail because she wanted child support out of him. My abuser could be behind bars this moment, but my mom wanted money every month so she can blow it on crap she doesn't need instead. That's right, none of that money goes to me or my siblings at all- just her need to blow money on home decor and clothes. Fuck her man... she didn't even want to divorce him until CPS got involved and insinuated they should.I hope she rots in hell. For now I'm stuck with her until I transfer to university next year. After that I'm never going back. via /r/raisedbynarcissists https://ift.tt/3mdWAs6