covid and the effect on a freshman girl

i do 100% online school none of my friends do. i just found out i will not be going to school either in the second semester. ever since this year started this is how i have felt snd what has happenno one talks to me my best friend for over 5 years said she doesn’t talk to me because she has other people, no one texts me, i never see anyone due to me not going to school even when i do it’s only for like 10 minutes because i do cross country and my parents drop me off at school. and i feel like i am left out all my friends text about funny things that happened at school i never know who they are talking about or what they are talking about. because of this stupid fucking virus i can’t see anyone i’m stuck at home all day. cross country has just ended today. and it’s hitting me so much i won’t be able to see anyone until soccer starts up that’s not until this spring though. i seem strong to my parents i even trick myself into being strong i haven’t felt sad through this whole quarantine except now i think i was always sad but it’s finally coming out i have cried for the past 4 nights. i usually i don’t have much to say to anyone anymore because i’m out of the whole loop i would kill to go back to school even if that means me always being bullied and being in drama again. i have been re decorating my room all the time, i’ve been running, painting anything to keep me from crying but i can’t hold it back anymore. i don’t know what to do. via /r/highschool https://ift.tt/37wt64z